Life Changing 2015

A year passed since my last blog post and so many life changing events happened in the last few months of my life. 

For starters, I am no longer with L'Oreal and now living my life as an ordinary housewife that only cooks, wash and shop for my home. But wait, not only a housewife but a pregnant one and with a pair of twin girls busy growing in my belly!

Finally!

The result of my pregnancy test on 05.11.2014 was a POSITIVE! 

It has always been my dream to have a pair of twins because my thought was to get over the pregnancy with my husband's wish to have two kids and get on with life. However, being pregnant has truly and deeply changed my thoughts and feel on motherhood. 

Discovering we were having TWINS during our first ultrasound scan with 

Dr Chuah Bee Poh of Tung Shin Hospital on the 5th December 2014! 

Miracles do happen! 

Motherhood, even before the babies are here, are such a sacred responsibility and I could hardly describe the feeling of these two babies kicking and dancing in my belly. From the moment that we found out we were pregnant, I started to have that mother's initial instinct to protect my tiny baby in my belly and to provide the best I could for the growing and development of this tiny human being inside of me. 

Having experienced the 1st & 2nd Trimester and now into the last stage of 3rd Trimester, I have to say that pregnancy is definitely not a piece of cake (maybe because I am having two babies). The only time that I was actually enjoying the pregnancy was in the 2nd Trimester where my belly was not too heavy and the horrible 1st Trimester symptoms have all gone away. Now in the 3rd Trimester, I am feeling so heavy and big that all I wanna do is sleep and not move at all. Even sleeping is a tough chore at this stage!

My changing belly from January'15 to April'15

Looking at my changing belly over the pass five months had me realized that my babies are growing fast and they will be here soon! 

At week 32 - Maternity Photography by Lawrence Studio

Life as a traveler

Life seems almost perfect from the point of view of outsiders. Life has been almost serene and full of hopes, yet again from the point of view of outsiders. How about the person living this life?

Traveling from chapter to chapter in this life, many events and people has been revealed. All these while, it was fate that has been working it's magic. Fate. Might be it or might not be it.

How am I to know when the clouds surrounding me is getting thicker and thicker to the point of blurring my vision?

There are times when I feel I am not in the right place. But I can't seem to find the pieces to the puzzle. Right now, I am feeling very troubled, by the thought that I am not heading in the right direction. That I am losing my path and that I am losing my way to the right destination.

Where is my right destination? What is my purpose in life?

My dear Grandmother

Taken during Chinese New Year 2013

She is adorable, lovely and a dear grandmother. Someone that is easy to love. Someone that is so important in my life and someone that I love so much. 

A few days ago, on the morning of 8th November 2013, she left us after her final heart operation at Institute Jantung Negara in Kuala Lumpur. At the age of 81 years, even without any approval from all family members, having just the vision that she will be able to at least gain a few more years of life, she insisted to go under the knife. 

Such a brave and strong willed grandmother, no one dared to crush her only hope. 

On the morning of 8th November 2013 at three in the morning, she didn’t wake up and her soul left her body.

That morning, I woke up suddenly to the sound of someone pounding on my door. My brother was shouting “Popo (Grandma) has passed away!” It was the type of message that will immediately send goose-bumps down your spine that seems like it will never go away. 

I couldn’t stop crying.  My heart seems to have broken into millions of pieces.No words were able to describe what I was feeling at that moment. The only thought on my mind was "Why didn't she wake up? Why did she lie to me? She promised me that she will wake up..."

Grandmother or better known as Popo to me... has left us… forever.

During Chinese New Year 2011

Happy New Year 2013

The new year has arrived! After all the hustle and bustle about 2012 being the end of the world, the new year unfolded itself to us in a merry and happy celebration!

 1st of January 2013

I have to say I did believed what the Mayan has predicted and was praying so hard to god not to end the world before my wedding day! Phew~ what a mess the Mayan has made with such bogus inaccurate prediction!

Anyways, the world did not end and we are still here, breathing and very much alive! Which is why we must indeed make 2013 a great if not a marvelous year! 

 Wishes from us!

I just saw a friend's status update on Facebook and it says,
"Today, is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a good one." 

Our life is the blank page and our action is the pen. This is to say that we are fully responsible for a great year ahead. Wishes will be lost if there are no action from our side. Even the lottery winner spends a great deal of his time thinking of what to buy and going out there to pay for the lottery ticket, then spend all his time waiting and looking out for the winning number. You see? Winning the lottery is not a miracle, it's a lot of hardwork! You may say that he's just lucky. Well, luck is just action at the right place and time.

So, start right now with your new year's resolutions and act towards it. A healthy and wealthy life starts with you. 

Happy New Year 2013!

Good bye 2012, Hello 2013!

2012 is the year of love

Before all the fireworks and celebration of the New Year 2013, I need some time to sit alone and think of the past one year of 2012.

Not a spectacular year nor a marvelous one either. I have to say if I don't think too much about it, it could be just another year gone by! Wait... but this is the year where my status was just upgraded... to Mrs. Chua!

Just because of this reason alone, the year is marked the most memorable and wonderful of my life! Starting a new life with someone I love and adore is truly remarkable and sometimes makes me feel like I've grown up to another level in my already adult life. Being someone's wife is different because of the responsibility that comes with it.

The whole year just whisked by in a hurry and seems to me taking the full year to plan for my wedding is definitely the right decision. Well, looking back now, it kinda feel strange that the whole wedding is over in a day when I took a year to plan it!

 

Our wedding pic!

One of our favourite among the favourites!

I think that life is actually empty without love. Love is not restricted to only love relationship but also relationship with family and friends. I have to thank god for all the people in my life! Those who stayed and those who just came into my life.

No doubt, people come and go. Many people come into your life and leave footprints behind. Even these footprints teach us something valuable in life! Especially those who came in and step all over with muddy feet and then say good bye. These people taught us to look carefully at each step we take so we don't take our dirty feet into other people's life! *smile* 

Well, since you don't like what was done to you, how can you expect others to like it?

In life, we have to be happy and remain happy. It's not as easy as typing these words but with a lot of practices and daily reminder, nothing in this world is impossible. So, with this, I conclude that year 2012 is a marvelous year full of love and I vow to let these love bombard next year too!

I hope love will conquer the world so there will be less suffering and more happiness!

Beautiful wedding day...

 24.11.12 Saturday:

The early morning of the day arrived and I woke up even before the alarm goes off. As excited as a bee with honey, I sprang to the bathroom to get ready for the exciting day!

All the preparations and planning for a whole year has finally come! 

It was a day filled with laughter and fun with close friends and families. It was exactly how I wanted it to be. Truly a perfect wedding for both of us.

 I've been to many weddings and most of it comes with traditional ceremonies that are unavoidable. All to give blessings to the newly weds and hoping they will continue to love one another until the end of time.  However, most Chinese traditions are to hope for riches and good life after the wedding.

 One of the tradition is for a little boy jumping on the newly weds bed in the hope of getting more little ones in the near future!

Prayers to god and ancestors is a must!

 The traditional tea ceremony for the parents and family

We have to give away red packets for the young unmarried ones!

I have to say it over and over again that it was the perfect wedding for us. Everything was so beautiful and everyone close to our hearts was there with us to celebrate this auspicious day. 

As a child, or a young girl... like all female, I have always dreamt about my own wedding and how it will be like. I always thought that my wedding will be very grand and huge; just like Cinderella!

However, when we started to plan our wedding, I knew from my heart that I wanted it to be intimate and memorable. The only way to achieve this result would only be with people we love dearly. 

My mummy who means the world to me!

Thanks to our dear families who were supportive and loving... 

Thanks to our wonderful friends who came and celebrated the day with us!

 Another tradition before the bride leaves the house would be to toss the bouquet to the next bride-to-be!

The one day I was a blushing bride awaiting for my husband's arrival...

 As my dear husband kneels before me to ask for my hand in marriage...

As every girls' dreams, to be married one day to a Prince Charming and live happily every after.

As for me now, it's truly a dream come true...

The only wish now for me is that our love will continue to grow and hope we will stay loving until the end of our time.

*The Love Story of Bubbles and Me

Inspiration from the sky - La vie est Belle

Being high up above the clouds, above the world and everything else, the world seems to be an endless place to be. Living in our own bubble everyday has clouded over vision of life. Our path is blinded by all the glittering lights and dust...

Right now, I am calm, serene and contented. Thinking only the most beautiful memories of all the people I love. Those who are still around, those who have already left to a better place... and those who will be leaving...

As we travelled through the sky, heavy mist and clouds may have blocked our way from time to time and causes tremor to all the passengers. However, the heavy mist quickly passes us by and greeting us is the clear blue sky again. No doubt the mist may appear again and again but we now know that awaiting us after each tremor is sunshine and beautiful clear blue sky.

It is really the most magical experience above the sky, and I wonder how many of us care enough to appreciate the magical nature surrounding us. It makes me realized that the world is actually very simple. Every element connecting to one another creating a chain reaction to every possible event in life. Every situation, good or bad is not the question but the fruit of our own action may be influenced by our behavior, thoughts and believes.

Life is never meant to be complicated. Keep every thoughts and believes simple which will then change our behavior to make our world a much more beautiful place to be.

La vie est Belle - simply means life is beautiful, is such a beautiful concept to match a lovely perfume by Lancome. A perfume with the most delicious and tasty iris creating a unique olfactory.

The sky has once again inspired me.

Search for your passion, live your life!

We are living in a world of diversity. Every person we connect with is different. Differences in character, attitude, thinking, culture, behavior, habit, likes, dislikes, etc… Human being is the only creature on earth that is able to adapt and familiarize with all these complication of life.

It’s definitely not easy as from young, we are customized to adapt to such differences. When you fight with your siblings, your parents will probably punish both and give instructions to accept each other. When we have problems with our relationship, we will most probably find books like ‘Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus’, the kind of book that provides deeper knowledge of how both sexes are different from one another and how to live together. When you argue with your peers, your superior will then instruct all to work it out and communicate. In other words, get use to it and by hook or by crook, find a way to work together!

Well, at the end of it all, we will find ways to adapt. Some people are easier to get along with, mostly because we are almost alike. There are some that are harder to get along because the differences in thinking and behavior are too vast.

But then what if you are surrounded by people who have the intention to sabotage your life? If you know people who seems very nice but with a hidden agenda that is solely for selfish reasons? Do we adapt to them or do we go against nature?

We are not the person other people wish we were. We are also who we decide to be. It’s always easy to blame others. You can spend your entire life blaming others, but your successes or failures are entirely your own responsibility. You can try to stop time, but it’s a complete waste of energy. – nipped from Aleph by Paulo Coelho.

Okay, interesting saying by Mr. Coelho. I totally agree with him as I believe what we have learn along the way is of course to create world peace. If human did not learn how to adapt to one another, we will be at World War the 1 millionth times by now!

No point focusing our energy on those people… well, because it is a waste of energy! Why not focus our energy on how to make our own life more interesting. Life is always about finding the right balance. If what you are experiencing is not in line with what you want in life, why wait? Why not find what you want and focus all your energy on it?

People, life is too short and time wait for no one.

Finally Mr & Mrs

I was counting down the moment we decided to register our marriage on the most romantic day of the year. Valentine's day! Literally, I was waiting for the day to come.

Two months before the big day, I was already prepared...

Pretty dress...checked!

Matching Rings... checked!

Gorgeous heels to match the dress...CHECKED!

Appointment letter from the registration department...checked!

Flowers... ok, there is one problem to buy flowers on Valentine's Day because the price seems to soar three times! But he got me pretty flowers to match my pretty dress!  

CHECKED!

However, never did it crossed my mind for one second during all the above that I would feel afraid. We've known each other for almost three years now and our love has blossom beautifully since then. I've known all along that he is the ONE and he told me he's prepared to love me til death do us part...

A few days before Valentine's Day, I panicked! 

I almost wanted to run away on the eve of Valentine's Day...

I have called my best friend and asked her if she will keep me secretly in her house until Valentine's Day is over...

I've asked myself over and over again... Why did I feel this way?

Well, I guess it must have been the stress... almost like those feelings you get before sitting for an important exam or attending a job interview that you really wanted. It is the knowing of how important it is and not knowing how to handle if you fail. I must have been afraid of failure.

Fortunately, the unconscious part of me stopped me from doing anything stupid to spoil the big day. The morning of Valentine's Day, I woke up feeling excited with butterflies in my stomach!

This is it! I am going to be his wife!

We reached Putrajaya very early and were the third couple to go through the registration process. The moment he said 'I do'... everything seems to be alright again and I felt so loved and cared for. This is the right decision!

 It's so simple...

Step 1: He signed the papers...

Step 2: I signed the papers...

  

Step 3: Papa signed the papers...

Step 4: Mama signed the papers...

Step 5: We are officially off the market!

My new title is Mrs.Chua! *love*

He hold me so tight and said "I am never going to let you go..."

I know now... this is the start of a new chapter in our relationship... and we promised never to let go... no matter what happens... the bond will only grow tighter with love.

"Mr & Mrs Chua"

 Finally... 

We were pronounced as Husband & Wife on Valentine's Day! 

(14th February 2012)