Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Wherever you are; Be There

One of the major reasons why we fail to find happiness or to create unique lifestyle is because we have not yet mastered the art of being.
While we are home our thoughts are still absorbed with solving the challenges we face at the office. And when we are at the office we find ourselves worrying about problems at home.
We go through the day without really listening to what others are saying to us. We may be hearing the words, but we aren't absorbing the message.
As we go through the day we find ourselves focusing on past experiences or future possibilities. We are so involved in yesterday and tomorrow that we never even notice that today is slipping by.
We go through the day rather than getting something from the day. We are everywhere at any given moment in time except living in that moment in time.
Lifestyle is learning to be wherever you are.
It is developing a unique
focus on the current moment, and drawing from it all of the substance and wealth
of experience and emotions that is has to offer.
Lifestyle is taking time to
watch the sunset.
Lifestyle is listening to silence.
Lifestyle is
capturing each moment so that it becomes a new part of what we are and of what
we are in the process of becoming.
Lifestyle is not something we do; it is
something we experience.
And until we learn to be there, we will never
master the art of living.

Monday, November 17, 2008

My heart weeps for all troubled soul

All of us seek something better in life
That something that
will give us satisfaction;
which leads to happiness in life
Then why is
it then we see sadness and strife?
Obsessions, jealousy, ignorance in all
walks of life

Do you ignore them and walk right on by?
or does
your heart weep as you look them in the eye
What Karma has brought them you
really don't knowa life torn asunder or addiction did grow
Life, certainly ain't easy
My Buddha Heart weeps for all troubled souls
by Joselyn Lee

Just when I thought I may move on in life and put my past (the good ones) as just a memoir of my journey in life, more dramas unfolds itself upon me to disrupt the positiveness of my current mindset. I have accepted the fact, forgiven the soul and protected in respect. But all these, must come in limitation as there is always a limit to how much truth we may be accepted.

The numbness of the discovery is still harassing my inner soul.

How much more 'discovery' and when is it ever going to end?

I sometimes do wonder why all living souls bring upon so much sufferings and pain to themselves; and to the people surrounding them? All such actions just to endure the evil seduction of obsessions and physical satisfaction; which are nothing but impermanent and artificial.

I don't think I can ever look at another human without wondering how much deep-dark-secrets lies in the closet of these individuals, or buried somewhere waiting to be revealed someday; somehow.

Is it so difficult to wish for a simple life? To just want pure love & happiness and share it with someone who appreciates little things in life as well? Are human meant to be born on earth to suffer and rejoice by evil actions & thoughts, as well as blinded by obsessions & jealousies?

All these discoveries has left me feeling very vulnerable and afraid. Afraid of all the unspoken thoughts of all walks of life. Afraid of how human brains has been polluted since the day of birth. Afraid of all the masks that people put on the moment they wake up from sleep everyday. Afraid of all the pretending, acting & lies to appear noble and highly-principled to the world, worthy of everyone's trust and respect.

What has the world become? What will our children; leaders of the future, be?

Education alone is not strong enough to fight the demons from polluting our children's mind. The world needs more compassion to make the future a brighter and better place; for our children and the generations to come.

Monday, November 10, 2008

My Beautiful Sunday

What a beautiful Sunday!

No worries, no work, no work, no work, no work.....and no work!
Haha! Yes yes! It's a non-working Sunday and I brought my grandma for a foot massage to make up for all the delicious vegetarian dishes that she has been preparing for me & bro. She is such a sweet angel to us, although sometimes this sweet angel of mine can be the Nagging Queen of the Century^_^

The only thing that spoiled my beautiful Sunday was the pain on my left ankle. I hope it will go away soon, but that hope was already 5 weeks old and still the pain did not go away. The funny thing is I don't remember spraining or hurting my ankle at all. I just thought it was a minor hurt and it will go away in a few days, not until I started to dance again that I realized it was actually getting worst. Just hope that the ancient chinese medicine practitioner will be able to do his magic on my ankle tomorrow!

Getting back to my beautiful title, which is Beautiful Sunday! I wonder how most people usually spend their beautiful Sunday? I used to spend Sunday working at home and after months of overworked and exhaustion, spent my Sundays nursing Saturday night fever! I am proud to say that today I truly did spend my Sunday rest & relaxing the right way. My beautiful Sunday started off with.......

1. My eight hours of beauty sleep
2. Healthy breakfast of fruits and veges
3. Catching up with my readings, especially the news!
4. Spent some quality time with grandma
5. Much needed and expired Pedicure treatments for my poor little toes
6. Had a drink and a decent conversation with my ex-boyfriend
- We are friends now and for the first time over the past 6 months, we talked like adults!
7. More catching up with my books!

The only thing that is lacking in my agenda is EXERCISE! It's kinda frustrating that I cannot use the treadmill for my jogs anymore as my ankles hurt each time I try to jog. I love running for at least 20 minutes before moving on to other exercises in the gym, which consists of 2 sets of 15 reps on stomach crunches, some yoga poses and full body stretching. Now, I'll probably have to wait for my ankle to heal first!

In the meantime, I will try to continue my Beautiful Sunday rituals and hopefully add more meaningful activities into my Sundays; activities like charity work, yoga, walks, swimming, cooking or baking classes, cathing up with friends & family...etc

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Daddy, I love you

The night that you died was the worst night of my life

I've never before felt so much strife
It's exactly a month now counting from that night

I was so confused I didn't know what to do

Because from that point on I had to live without you

I loved you so much even though sometimes we would fight

I loved you so much that it all hit me that night

It happened that night, my worst nightmare came true

For that night was the last night with you

I try not to cry, I try to be strong

But each day is so hard since you've been gone

I think of the memories and the things from the past

Because those are now the only things that are left to last

Every time I go out, when I have things to do

I always find something that reminds me of you

Whether I go out to eat or have things to do

Especially when I past those places where you used to go

I'm always reminded of you

There are so many things that I have yet to do

Things that I wanted to share with you

Like getting married and you giving me away

Or having my children and you watching them grow each day

I miss you so much I don't know what to do

I wish you could come back

If only for a few

There were so many things I feel were left unsaid

Now I love you daddy just lingers in my head

I don't know if you know just how much I loved you

But I loved you more than anything

And I just wish you knew it was true

Its hard for me daddy without you here

Now I find myself daily surrounded by tears

When I go to the cemetery where they laid you to rest

And I just can't believe that there is where you nest

It all happened so quickly

It seemed like a dream

It doesn't feel right

It just feels like a scheme

I know that its real and I'll never forget you

But I just don't know without you what to do

We all loved you; Bro, Sis, Mom, & I

But we all know that this isn't good-bye

Dad, You'll truly be missed by everyone

Whether it be by your family or the friends that you had

You were my guardian angel and I miss you so

But I guess it was time for me to let you go

No, I won't forget

Not even for a day

But I must wake up and realize things will be okay

I know you're still watching

I know you still care

Even though you are not physically here
I'll see you again someday

But until I do, I just want you to know one last things

Daddy, I love and truly miss you