Monday, December 28, 2009

moving forward... to a colourful 2010!

Counting down to 2 more days to the New Year and it’s time for new resolutions. But before that, I think it is more important to reflect back to the past 12 months for the good and valuable memories as well as important lessons learnt.

This year has been the year where I see most changes in my life. Positive changes which have brighten-up my life as well as made me a better person.

The first half of the year is where major struggles and adjustments needed to continue with life without my daddy. I have to say it was not easy but a necessary task to tackle in order to live a normal life again; it was truly an agonizing period for me and family. However, it was during these hard times that I have developed true friendships and only during these struggles that has strengthen the family bond.

family is more precious than jewels...

a newbie to the family... Muffin!

Great friendships that makes life taste so good!
As for my work, I have also seen much improvement in areas where I was weak when I started the job. Plus I am now better in handling difficult people and learn the hard way on how to be deaf when listening skills are not needed; no need for further explanation on this matter. In short, I have found ways to motivate myself to like and enjoy what I am doing at work.

The second half of the year has been the best of all as cupid strikes me a Prince! Not any Tom, Dick & Harry but a great guy who cares, loves and cherish me. Someone I can count on through the bad as well as the good times. Someone who see me as who I am and loves me for it. Someone who will care and hold me through the bad times and someone to share the good times with; I can never ask for a better man than him.
the love that has brought me sweetness ever since cupid strikes...

In short, 2009 has been a great year with wonderful memories to cherish as well as equipped me with important lessons and knowledge to pave my way to a better life. I have been thinking of what resolutions to make for the New Year, however, a great friend advised me to take it easy as life will be much happier when we don’t put too much stress on ourselves. I can’t help but absorbed her advised as she is a truly happy-go-lucky babe with plenty of cheerful and motivational thoughts to share everyday on Facebook!

Nonetheless, I have some simple resolutions that I am very sure it will be effortless for the coming year…

YR 2010 Resolutions:

1. To be happy and stay happy
2. To spread happiness
3. To love and be loved

As easy as 1, 2,3….. See you next year!!

Have a gorgeous and colourful New Year!!

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Why do couples live together before marriage?

Often it is the stimulated by the loving feeling of being together. The thought of sharing everything in life and doing everything together, including being able to wake up every morning in each other arms and cuddles closely every night. In the beginning, it is like a gift from heaven.

However, as time goes by, without proper communication… resentment will built up and slowly it might destroy any loving feelings that were once shared. The most common reason would be lost of ‘me’ time.

No doubt doing everything together is absolute heaven and sounds like any fairy tales that 5 year olds might believe in; in real life, it is absolutely important to have ‘me’ time. For guys it might be time for them to catch up with the guys, some game time, beer sessions with some soccer on the screen, or even surfing the internet as entertainment. For the girls would be gossip sessions, top to toe beauty treatments, hanging out with the family or just having some quiet time with a book would be great. These are just some examples of ‘me’ time. I am sure there are more to add on to the above list!

Let’s just say the couple drag each other to do the ‘me’ time thingy together; the guy invites the girl to his beer session with soccer on the screen. In the beginning, it would be curiosity that motivates the ‘yes’ to the invitation. Unless the girl is a great fan of soccer and beer, otherwise the experience for her would be like staring at the white wall for half a day. Vice versa if the guy follows the girl to her ‘me’ time with no interest, the experience would be the same as well.

Soon, both would feel they have sacrificed too much to be in the relationship and resentment that were accumulated will burst and cause the relationship to wobble. The initial objective and reason of staying together will be forgotten and clouded by anger and bitterness.

If only the love is strong enough to overcome this hindrance however most of the time anger and bitterness will succeed in breaking up the trust and love.

Just a few more minutes to another Christmas, this year will be the first year in so many years that I am counting down by myself. A Merry Christmas to all my friends. Hope Santa will bring joy and fun to all plus a beautiful new year.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Our first dance lesson

Yesterday, bubbles and I attended our first Salsa lesson. It was Bubbles' first experience in dance lesson and I have to say... he was not so bad!

The class started off with identifying the beat of Salsa music and then learning beginner's mambo as well as 2 other salsa shines... Cucharacha and Right turn. Also there were abit of partner work as well where all were to experience their first Salsa dance with a partner. Those who came without a partner is no problem as the guys will rotate around until everyone has the chance to experience and practice their moves.

**Shines = dance moves/steps

As for me, it brought back memories of my first Salsa lesson with Meow. It was with the same instructor, Aisha and observing how the beginners tried or struggled to master the new steps or juggling between counting the beats plus remembering the steps as well as managing both their feet is certainly not easy task for them. I was one of them many many months back and have been enjoying the dance ever since. But I am proud of Bubbles as he did really well and to me, he seems to be the best among the guys in the class. Not bad for a beginner at all! I'm not saying that just because he is Bubbles... well... maybe a little... but who cares! *wink wink*

Anyway, some guys at the beginner stage of these kinda dance are just... scary. There were some guys trying to crab dance instead of Salsa and I'm not so sure what he was trying to do as his feet and hands were not aligned. Some were too absorbed in remembering the counting and how to do the 'Right Turn' that they were wrestling their partner instead of leading. Those were the days where I get turned off by guys who can't seem to handle their dance partner well. A note of advice to guys who wished to do well in Salsa or any partner dance; First of all, bear in mind that your partner is alive. She is not a doll that you may swing and throw as you want. Handle the women with care and you will be labelled well even if you have 2 left feet. Do trust me on this.

Real soon... the above picture will transform into Bubbles and Bubbly...

Our handwritten nametags for the first day of Salsa Class

Friday, December 11, 2009

Do you already have a Prada?

Do people really need Gucci, LV, Prada products to make them happy? Do people really need to buy 100 dollars shoes just to make them smile? Do guys really need to buy 99 flowers for their partner just to make them right?
Taken from

Going through some of my dad’s belongings today made me realize just how true the above statement is. I was trying to re-arrange his belongings into a cabinet; trophies, photo albums, files, and also his ‘treasures’ when he was still around.

If we need all the above material stuffs just to make us happy, then why are those belongings not taken along when we leave the world? So what causes the happiness of attaining so many prizes, branded goods, huge mansion and shinning wheels? Is it because we perceives attaining all the above as being successful? Where does the idea come from? Is it because we see that handful of successful people in the world who own all the above and more; thus categorized them as successful?

It’s a wake up call for me when my dad passed away. All the possessions that he worked so hard for in his life were left collecting dust after he went away. All his prized possessions are still lying around and if they have a life of their own, might even felt lonely as their once lovable master has already left home forever. Nothing was taken with him; except his soul and hopefully his memories of his life on earth.

So, it does not make any difference on who you are, what you do, how much you possessed. When the end of our journey on earth comes, we all end up the same way. We will leave as how we came, empty handed and alone…

This is again a reminder to me not to be blinded by materials possessions which are all short term happiness and satisfaction. Life has deeper meaning when you realized just how short our journey on earth is. Don’t waste time chasing fake goals.

Live to love who you are, who you love, and how you will care. Ensuring the most important 'treasure' you leave behind will be your love, happiness and compassion.

Does that mean you want to live there?

Sunday, December 6, 2009

6 Months of Amazing Love

5th of December 2009 marked the 6th month of our sweet relationship.

We celebrated at WIP @ Bangsar Shopping Complex and had another wonderful evening together. Seriously, I can't possibly ask for a better man than Bubbles as he always has me in his mind and always give me the best in everything.

Being with him for the past 6 months has been the most remarkable part of my life and together we have experienced wonders. Although there are ups and downs in a relationship, which is absolutely normal and fair... We have learn the best ways to communicate to each other that has lessen our fights... I have to add-on that we don't even fight after the initial 3 months. I'm pretty sure Bubbles will agree to that...
At first, we wanted to try out Monte's at BSC but the place was packed with people and the service was very slow. Both of us were standing in the middle of the restaurant hoping for some waiter to serve us, but we overheard some patrons groaning that they have been waiting for an hour for their food! So we adjourned to WiP, which in my opinion was very much better compared to Monte's. I can't compare the food as I have not tried Monte's but the ambience, the crowd, the atmosphere and the service was ver much better than Monte's. Plus WiP is much more romantic to wine and dine.
The food was good; we had mushroom for starters + lamb and chicken for main. Not forgetting the delicious bottle of Red Sangria throughout dinner.

A toast to more 6 months to come! Below proved how happy we were after the last glass of Red Sangria......

More photos of us......

Bubbles looking smart and very happy indeed...

And myself.... No doubt I am extremely happy and not sure if Bubbles realize it that I was wearing the exact same outfit as the night that started it all.... I purposely wear the same outfit because I want this night to be very special indeed. Maybe now he might see some similarity?

Our love is the long lasting kind;
We’ve been together quite awhile.
I love you for so many things,
Your care, your hugs, your kiss, your smile.
You accept me as I am;
I can relax and just be me.
Even when my quirks come out,
You think they’re cute; you let me be.
With you, there’s nothing to resist;
You’re irresistible to me.
I’m drawn to you in total trust;
I give myself to you willingly.
Your sweet devotion never fails;
You view me with a patient heart.
You love me, darling, no matter what.
You’ve been that way right from the start.
Those are just a few reasons why
I’ll always love you like I do.
We’ll have a lifetime full of love,
And it will happen because of you.
**Another special dedication to Bubbles for our 6 months of amazing love
poem by Joselyn Lee

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Did you lose your mind?

Sometimes I do wonder; the cost of living in a city is so high that people are overworking to sustain a comfortable life and providing enough for family. Overworking is not the matter, but overworking to an extend that hurts ones health is not worth the sacrifice at all.

Most parents are hoping to provide enough food, best comfort and good education to their children; especially when the cost of good education in the country is so high. My mother has always been working hard to give the best to her family. No matter how busy she is with work, she never fails to prepare food on the table for the family. However, accumulation of overworking and stress in her busy life has also caused her to have symptoms of anxiety and distress.

This is what happened today.

She feels uncomfortable again. Short of breath. Abnormal blood pressure. Difficulty in falling asleep. Gas in stomach.

Nothing of the above is new to her, or to the me but she insisted to visit Professor Jeya; her favorite doctor in SJMC who also used to be my daddy’s cardiologist.

Doctor: Hi, how are you feeling today?

Mom: Difficult to breathe and a lot of gas in my stomach. Also I checked my own blood pressure today and it’s unusually high.

Doctor: Okay, let me check…..

**After thorough checking…..

Doctor: You seem find. All these symptoms don’t sound like you’re having a cardiac arrest so don’t worry.

Mom: But doctor, I sometimes feel numbness here….
**showing where she feels numbness….

Doctor: Nahh… I’ve checked you few weeks back and you’re perfectly alright. Nothing serious…

Mom: But I feel short of breathe, and why my blood pressure is so high…

Doctor: It’s normal for the blood pressure to be slightly higher than normal when you’re under stress or you don’t sleep well and normally blood pressure will go up and down. It’s normal. I’ve checked you and you’re fine. You think too much, I think you have an over active mind. Try to stay calm and relax.

**still trying to insist that she is not right…..

Doctor: Okay, I’ll prescribe you something to take only when you feel anxiety or stress. Don’t take it always. This medication will calm you down and you will feel better. Alright?

Mom: Oh, I don’t need anything else? This will be alright.

Doctor: Yes, listen to me. You are perfectly alright. Just a little too uptight and think too much. Okay, relax yourself and take your daily dose of medication. You’ll be fine.

Mom: Okay.

Well, this will be the third time I went with her to see this doctor and this will be the third time that the doctor says the same thing to her. It makes me worry about her and makes me feel useless as I don’t know how to make her feel better. After doing some research on her symptoms, there are several types of anxiety disorder;

Types of Disorders

Panic disorder, agoraphobia, social anxiety disorder (social phobia), specific phobia or simple phobia, generalized anxiety disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder and post-traumatic stress disorder are the different types of anxiety disorders. Periods of fear that are very intense or a psychological distress that comes suddenly and lasts as little as half an hour are the experiences of someone with panic disorder and some common symptoms include trembling, shortness of breath, palpitations of the heart, sweating, nausea, dizziness and hyperventilation as well as tingling sensations and also a feeling of being choked.

Relating back to my previous blog entry on Realizing The Meaning of Life, it makes me realize that the mind is truly a powerful tool. All of the above disorders are created by a mind that has been misused over the years and causes it to lose control. The only way to remove the disorder would be to MEDITATE and find your true self. Only when you find your true self that you will sense inner peace, and by sensing inner peace will then the mind is controllable and not run wild. Don't let your mind conquer you, take action and take over your own mind. Realizing this theory is the only answer to end the above suffering.

I’ve seen a lot of adults going through the same cycle because of the stress they put upon themselves to achieve more.

Just ask yourself, is it worth it?
What’s the use of having lots of money but suffer from losing yourself along the way?
What’s the use of living in a huge mansion when there’s no one there to share with?
What’s the use of being the best when the only person you’re challenging and destroying is you?

We don't need to be the best for we are already a champion the moment we were born. We only live once. Do it right. Live a happy life. Search for inner peace.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Do you spend time with yourself?

Today, I have a few precious hours of the much needed “me” time to nurture my inner being and balance my thoughts. Living in the city where you are required to do millions in a minute, “me” time is crucial to retreat and enjoy the sensation of just being you.

What I would normally do during these “me” time are just simple activities such as reading inspiring books and meditating or just loving my own company and appreciating the silence surrounding me. It is absolutely tranquilizing.

Continuing from my previous blog entry, to be able to realize the meaning of your life, these “me” time is certainly helpful. It is when I am alone do I realize who am I deep inside and it is when I am alone like this that I can see where my life is heading clearly.

Realizing your reason for living can be described as when you are walking home alone on the street and there are fogs surrounding you that blurred your path to your destination. Your secret weapon that will bring you towards your destination clearly and safely is the torch in your hand that shines through the fogs to give you a brighter vision of the path. However, if the torch in hand is not well maintained or the battery is weak, the light from the torch will be dark or the torch is not working at all. Then you will be lost in those fogs forever and end up being in a place you might not want to be.

“Me” time will ensure to lessen the fogs in your life so you’re more in touch with where you are going and your purpose in life as well as providing a torch that will shine as bright as the sun to guide you to your desired destination.

Love yourself and start today by having ‘me’ time. Do the right thing during these ‘me’ time and see your life transform to the better.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Realizing the meaning of life

I’ve just finished watching a Chinese drama that evolves back into the olden china emperor era. The drama is full of jealousies, evil minded opportunist, corruption, immoral behavior, wicked action and plans, etc

Somehow I am able to relate some of the above to reality. Human beings are complicated creatures of the earth because of having the ability of an intelligent mind. Using this intelligence to serve kindness and compassion will definitely benefit the world; however, using it for selfish reasons will cause suffering and harmful consequences to others.

Sometimes I do wonder why people need to act these ways. Isn’t life complicated enough? From the moment we were born into the world, suffering is what we have been encountering.

The mind is certainly a powerful tool. If used properly, we will accumulate intelligence and knowledge to quicken our path to enlightenment; where we will be able to enjoy eternal happiness. Life is short and the purpose of being here must be known in order to live a fulfilling life.

I don’t want to stray away from my purpose in my life. I used to be blinded by lots of unimportant goals and benefits. Luckily I am always able to remind myself that my life is on track and my actions are leading me towards my purpose. Everything in this world is not god’s gift but the result of mind interpretation that influence actions.

I hope more people will realize this and start living their life as it was meant to be lived. Take away the clouds to reveal the sunshine!

Nurture the mind by feeding it with nutritious values...

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Wishes do come true...

Hmmm.... been thinking of where to go end of December for a short vacation. Should I be going to somewhere near the blue ocean where I can sit on soft sand watching the sunset and sunrise everyday? Haha! I know most people think I am mad for spending hard earned money to be sitting and doing nothing but look at the sun. Actually I kinda missed those days where I can sit and stare up the sky and just watch the gorgeous clear blue sky with soft pure white clouds slowly sailing by... with no other thoughts in mind and thanking all my lucky stars for the gift of love.

However, I have second thoughts about a short vacation to the beach. The only place I wish to go is Bangkok again. I have made a wish when I was in Bangkok this May and I would like to return to thank the incredible god of love for granting my wish...

I was here in May 2009 to wish for love. I wished I will find someone that will love me for who I am and shower me with love in the good as well as the bad times. I also wish this someone will be my Prince forever... a month later, my wish was granted and my life has never been better...
My prince has promised to hold my hands and never let go...
no matter what happens...
I too wished upon the god of love that my beloved friends will find eternal love and happiness... and life for them will be filled with heavenly joy and vibrant laughter...
This wish has been granted as well...
All of them have found their joy and basking in blissful love ... and one found happiness in her own little family with a newborn... her pride and joy! Hopefully another one will soon have her own family with a lovely man that will provide her with unconditional love and care.
Now, the one thing that I need to do is to return and thank the god of love for the blessing of love.....

Friday, November 27, 2009

November went missing...

Oh no! Did I just miss the whole month of November? I can’t believe the month whizzed by in mere seconds! Hmm… let me think what I have been up to for the whole of November…

I don’t want to go on about how engrossed I was with work because this seems like the only reason I give lately. Although work has been truly busy because of a new project that I have taken on and rushing everything to be deployed by year end.

Right… no more work stuffs…

I am just glad that I am on a few days leave from work and my only plan is to sit around doing nothing! Such inviting thought… Anyway, so glad for the few days off from work and I am just going to catch up with things that I have been neglecting lately. Blogging will be the first on my list… the rest would be prioritized later…

20th November is the day where my brother is officially 24 years old. I wish him all the best in his future undertakings, seriously... now he undertands that money doesn't grow from trees and everyone needs to sacrifice time and sweat to earn a living. No matter what he wish to do, I will truly support him and try my best to provide the best guidance...
Happy 24th Birthday bro...

We had dinner and then adjourned to Alexis @ Ampang to witnessed the powerful crooning of Cynthia Utterbach from the United States.

Also thanks to bubbles who have always been there for me through the good and especially the bad times.. also not forgetting all the guidance and love that he has been showering me.. love you lots and I don't know what life would be without you by my side...

Celebrated my aunt's birthday the next day... the November babies^_^

Friday, October 30, 2009

Hair Story

I was reading an article online regarding hairstyles which inspired me this entry. I have to agree with the article that hairstyles certainly reflects a certain character in a person's personality. I have changed my hairstyles numerous time and discovered that my current hairstyle is what suit my personality the best. I have had very long hair to very short hair, curly hair to very straight hair. A few months back I have shorten my bangs hoping to make me look slightly younger. However, right now I am now waiting to grow my bangs and hair longer so I can have sexy wavy curls by next year.

So what is your ideal hair?

Short hair

If a woman has a well-maintained and carefully-cut short hairstyle, it can reveal that she is artistic and wants to express herself through her hair. Any high-maintenance hairstyle can be a sign of wealth or that a woman cares about her looks, but short hair requires frequent trips to the stylist, a sign that the woman is okay with spending money to look good.

According to Dimitrius, “Spending a significant percentage of one’s income on hair—or any other aspect of personal appearance—suggests vanity, a need for acceptance, concern about others’ perceptions, and possibly insecurity.”

Of course, there are some women who are forced to have short hair because of certain reasons like hair loss or unhealthy hair because of specific health reasons.

Long hair

Long hair can have multiple meanings. Many women believe that long hair makes them more sexually appealing, but it can also show a bohemian spirit or a need for freedom. Feminism may be potrayed with long hair. Survey also shown that majority of men consider women with long hair more appealing than short hair.

Long hair can be divided into 2 categories which is straight and wavy. Some cultures perceives straight hair more vibrant and young. Some perceives wavy hair as sexy and flirtatious.

However, women over forty with long hair can be trying to hold onto their youth (and sex appeal) and may be unrealistic in their perceptions of themselves.

Unique and multi coloured hair
Mohawks, Unique Styles

Obviously this shows that the wearer bucks tradition and doesn’t care what people think of her. The wearers are usually young and adventurous, but wearing these styles into adulthood reveals a woman who has little regard for what conventional society (employers, authority figures) thinks of her. Also people who are in the creative industry tends to be more adventurous with their hairstyles (stylist, artist, etc)

So which hairstyle do you adopt to reveal your personality?
I believe a person's hairstyle may tell many stories of a person's life ventures. From the moment you were born to the moment you pay for your own hair cut and to the time where your styles changes to suit your lifestyle or taste. Each style provides a unique story of a person. So, ensure that your story is well perceived by your audience.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Shanghai 10 @ Avenue K

Normally I would not specifically blog about food. However, a trip to Shangai 10 at Avenue K made me feels like heaven... I meant the food.... As I am not the usual food blogger, I will just simply state my true feelings...

First dish we ordered were the famous "xiu long bao". The delicious soup in the dumpling were oozing out as my teeth sanked into the soft skin of the dumpling. Oooh... heaven!
I have tasted this dish from quite a number of restaurant, but the sweetness of the soup and the meat of this dumpling from Shanghai 10 is something that I would prefer over the others.

Next comes the special noodles of the restaurant. My bf ordered a mild spicy soupy la mian, which was supposed to be another of their recommended dish.

Not as spicy as it looks though, and this can be categorized as those 'comfort food' type that is able to make you feel like life is free from problem... something like "chocolate in heaven"...
The slightly thick soup feels warm and comfortable when travelling down the throat....

This is certainly heaven-made! Durian Pancake...
The creamy texture of the fillings plus a hint of durian taste certainly made me feels so satisfying. The skin is soft, kinda like popiah but much smoother and softer. The colour of this dish compliments the taste as well, you know how they say visuals actually influence the taste buds. That's why professional chefs made so much effort in food creativity. Coming back to this, it is a must try for all.

Last on the list will the Avacado Rolls. Although we were quite full from the main dish, but this is another highly recommended item. The fried-meehon-like wrapping the avacado fillings made this such an adventurous venture for me. I usually don't fancy such food. However, the taste of this combo were hard to resist. The avocado fillings taste a little like 'kaya' but slightly stronger and less sweet. The fried-meehoon-like wrap were so crunchy that I felt like I was eating 'keropok'.... and after wiping out the whole dish, you just can't stop yourself from picking the small pieces of fried-meehoon-like and eating them like 'keropok'.... definitely a must try!

They have quite a number of set meals as well and the prices are quite reasonable taking in consideration that the food are quite presentable and with reasonable quality. However, the staff are not very well-trained. I would say the service from the staff did not compliment the delicious food at all. I would have gotten a 10% discount off the bill from Jusco membercard if the staff could just mention before the payment. Not until I ask them that they told me to see for myself as the tiny sad-looking sign for the discount were placed at the counter. Certainly a bad ending to such a wonderful food adventure...
Let's see when I will make another visit there again....with my Jusco membercard!

Friday, October 23, 2009

Can you hear bells?

Can you hear bells ringing?

I hear bells ringing everywhere! It is the time of the year again where you get bombarded with wedding invitations!

I don’t mean it in a bad way. However, seeing all my school buddies getting hitch; especially those who were once my classmates looking like an angel in their wedding dress makes me feel kinda astounded. It is not in a dreadful way though as I am very happy seeing my school buddies getting married to great guys and starting a wonderful new chapter in their lives.

It is just so amazing seeing my school buddies transforming from once a young innocent-looking… or maybe not… school girl to the now a vibrantly beautiful and glowing bride. Seeing them now makes me realized as well that time has certainly changed everything. People changed. Life has changed. Circumstances have changed. Status has changed. Even friendships have changed.

Without any doubt, I have changed so much. Even comparing a year ago and now, there are significant changes that makes me a different person. I would think that changes are good in a way that brings new challenges and adventures into our lives. Changes could be a motivation to one to close up on opportunity areas in one’s life. Maybe a change of a behavior will bring new opportunities. A change in perspective might make unfortunate situation becomes a new challenge. Some changes of our actions might bring new friendships into our lives.

Who knows what’s going to occur next, right? Just as long as we don’t see change as a threat or something that is unpleasant... some might even see it as an unfortunate situation.

Well, I do hope to be able to see more of my school buddies in their wedding dress and angelic smile. If at any chance that circumstances doesn’t allow me to be there on that momentous day… I just wanna say it here that I am absolutely happy for you and hope you will continue unfolding countless joyful and blessings in your new chapter in life!

Chew Mei looking exceptionally beautiful in her wedding dress... The girl who once sat next to me in the classroom...

Leah's memorable day! Unfortunately I wasn't able to attend due to my dad's passing away a month before her wedding... I was supposed to be one of her pink angels...

Rachel looking incredibly sweet and angelic next to her beau...

Both Rachel and Leah are now mummies. I hope there will be more to come ^_^

A glimpse of Leah's Princess....

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Live your true life

“When you say you fear death, you are really saying that you fear you have not lived your true life. This fear cloaks the world in silent suffering.”
By David Viscott

How do you know what your true life is?
How do you know how to live it?

The answers to these questions are yours for the taking, but you must seize the answers and not wait to be given them. No one will give you the answers.

In order to find out what your true life could be, you should look for clues in what and when makes you the happiest.

What makes you happy?

The same question to ask yourself over and over again until the final and true answer comes to you.

For me I have found that teaching makes me happy, writing makes me happy, dancing makes me happy, and performing makes me happy. Besides that, being with family or people that I love makes me happy as well.

It took me years of unhappiness to finally reach a point of despair to find my answers. I remembered the first time I was on the stage delivering a 15 minutes speech to a hall of 200 audiences, I was ecstatic before and after the speech. Everyday I would spend quality time rehearsing how I could deliver the speech most effectively. I would visualize myself standing on the stage, the feelings of successfully delivering the speech, the enthusiasm of the audience after hearing my speech, the radiant of confidence that I would portray to the audience, and the whole atmosphere of the event. The motivation was just so unbelievable.

My first experience on stage was so unbelievably great that I was looking forward to my second and third time. My point here is when you are doing something that makes you feel so satisfied and ecstatic, you become a different person. I feel so happy doing it that the feeling is just indescribable.

You need not be perfect in doing the things that makes you happy because perfection comes from practices. However, the joy and motivation from the activity is more important. You must enjoy the process and be willing to stay for more!

Monday, October 19, 2009

My Wonderful Man

"My Wonderful Man"
It seems I dreamed you into life
For once I visualized this guy
Who cares for me and makes me smile
Who kisses my forehead when I cry
Who holds my hand
Who gives me warm hugs every night
Even when the journey seems rough
You always seems to amaze me
You never fail to assure me
You never fail to be there for me
My heart melts when you whisper
That your love for me is for real
That I will be your angel forever
Being with you has been a blessing
Every hour every day
Your love fills my heart
A wonderful man in my life
That nothing can compare
The bluest sky
The deepest sea
You are so special to me
Poem by Joselyn Lee
***A special dedication to a wonderful man in my life......

your angel..... your inspiration....

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Remembering the day dad left home... forever!

Today is the first anniversary of my daddy’s death. I have to say I’m not as emotional as I thought I would be. Thinking back to the same day last year, I had lunch with him and said our good byes before he was found dead. As today signifies his leaving us for exactly a year, I was quite sure I will cry me a river; just like Justin Timberlake’s song. However, I did thought of him for most of today but I did not shed a single tear because of him.

I am so proud of myself. I admit I did not let go of him since he passed away. Every time I think of him there would certainly be gloominess and misery as I truly missed him terribly.

**Click to view 04.10.08 blog on his death .... ***

Especially last night as our family celebrated Mid-Autumn Festival at home. Last year, he forced me to search high and low for mooncakes. He made a big fuss when my mom did not manage to buy any mooncakes for him.

My grandma certainly did had a lot of FUN!

Thanks to my mom who made this happened and for preparing so much food for us!

Bubbles who have been a great support in my life...

My bro too for being a good confidant since the day dad passed away.

Today, I am certain of one thing. I have moved on. Of course my heart still aches when I think of him. Of course he will forever have a special place in my heart and forever be missed, but today I realized that he would want us to live happily. He would want to see us having a great time and live well as a family. He would want my mom to live happily and safely. That was what he always wanted when he was still alive.

As for me, it is truly time to let go as 1 year has already passed in a blink of an eye. Life is so beautiful and there are so many adventures and chapters to unfold. It’s certainly cruel to stop myself from experiencing a remarkable life as god intend for me to.

With this, I would like to say my very last good bye to my daddy and hope he is living his remarkable and beautiful life wherever he is now.

Love you forever...

Saturday, October 3, 2009

The kopitiam craze

I love having crunchy toasts with bouncy half-boiled eggs and the strong aroma of delicious white coffee early in the morning. Most of the time I will opt for Old Town as the price is almost reasonable and the coffee is so awakening.

The success of Old Town Kopitiam was so great that soon there are cheap imitations of the coffee house found in almost every corner of Klang Valley. Just like cheap looking LVs in Petaling Street. Let me try to remember the names of those Old Town imitations.

1. Old Boy Kopitiam - This is funny… when a boy is old he is usually referred to as a man…

2. Old Taste Kopitiam - What I heard was the founder of this chain was a runaway from Old Town Kopitiam… Haha!

3. Georgetown White Coffee Kopitiam - I saw this recently in the newspaper… I always thought Georgetown is famous for their “Har Mee” Prawn Mee…

4. Papparich Kopitiam - okiee…a refreshing name comparing the above. At least the founder uses some creativity and not just simply jumps into the bandwagon of other’s success. Well, in an indirect way though. But I have to agree that at least the food is alright.

5. others others… I am kinda lazy to list down all others as I am now enjoying the tasty white coffee at Old Town Kopitiam located at Old Klang Road and getting kinda irritated by the lousy wi-fi connection. Sigh, should have gone to Pappa Rich just next door!

I might be unfair to others but I still think Old Town has the best Coffee despite the limited choice of food.

My mom mentioned once that they might have drugged the coffee to get me so addicted. Come to think of that, maybe! Or they might have drugged the eggs too as I am addicted to them as well! I too think their eggs are better than anywhere! Even those done at home :P Well, since Bubbles got his medical report today that shows a slight above average in cholesterol. So I can have his share now! Yippee!

If only I can have my own chain of Kopitiam with a unique name. Well, let me think of a few nice names that I can use:

1. Josy Kopitiam - nah! Too original…

2. Super Aroma Kopitiam - aiks! Sounds like some Reflexology turned Kopitiam type…

3. Grassy Scenery Kopitiam - I’m sure people will stay away from this place… as I too will not enter a place that implies they sell grass…

4. Forever 21 Kopitiam - hmmm… I might lose “OLDER” customers… those uncle-uncle type might be shy to enter the shop…

5. Delightful Taste Kopitiam - ehhh… not bad wor…maybe :P

Enough la! Not as if I will own one tomorrow. I will think of it when the time comes. Now just hope the time will come. No nooo…The law of attraction says must be positive…

The day will definitely COME! You wait!

See, I too am influenced by the Kopitiam-mania started by Old Town.