Saturday, June 12, 2010

Strip me naked...

What if I were to strip off all my titles, my name, my job, my family, my status, my relationships, my education... everything!

Who am I exactly?
When I lay beneath the earth, destined to be turned into dust...
will I be remembered for my titles?
will I be remembered for the fame I've collected?
will I be remembered for the love I have spread around?



The family portrait that will never be repeated in any lifetime for my father has been taken away from our lives 2 years ago... In my heart, he will always be remembered as my father... the guy who have provided me love since I was born in his own unique ways... also the guy who has indirectly nurtured me into who I am today...
He was born on the 5th July 1949 and will be almost 61 years old if he is still alive today. He was extremely active when he was young and a fierce & strict parent when he had us.
He believes himself to be a good friend, a good mentor, a leader with a vision, and a good family man. He always tried his best to help his fellow friends & family, to guide and provided leadership to those who needed to succeed in their career and life... He always would help in whatever way he could to those he cared. I remembered, he silently helped financially to those he cared and never complain a word about it.
However, when he died... most has forgotten who he is, what he has done to helped them and how he worried about them when he was alive. I dare say 'some' people have taken his good intentions for granted and all is now forgotten.
No doubt, I believe my daddy is very peaceful now. He is a good man when he was alive and no matter where he is now... he would be continuing his journey & destiny...

But for myself... where am I going and what is my destiny?

Friday, June 11, 2010

Wanna make Pistachio Chocolate Fudge?

The football season is here yet again! Hmm... what is more perfect than yummy dessert + football? Beer + Football?

Why not this equation?
yummy dessert + beer + football = Heaven

Here is my recommendation....
Pistachio Chocolate Fudge

I love how the chewy texture of the rich chocolate melting in my mouth and the crunchy nutty pistachio in between the dark yummy chocolates... this recipe is a MUST try!
If you're keen to show off your skills in making some yummy dessert...

Here are the simple ingredients:
350g of dark chocolates
2 tablespoon of cocoa powder
300g can of condensed milk
30g butter
pinch of salt
150g pistachios (Bash into little & big pieces)


Methods:
1. Put chopped chocs + condensed milk + butter + salt in a pan on low heat
2. Stir occasionally and well to ensure no burning (no need for double boiler :P)
3. Add nuts into choc mix
4. Pour mixture into a foil tray about 23cm square, smooth the top
5. Let fudge cool and the refrigerate for about 2 hours or til set
6. Cut fudge into tiny square pieces (about 64 pieces; 3x25cm, 8x10lines)

That's it!
It's so easy to make and yet so delicious! Don't forget to buy several flavors of ice-cream to eat with the fudge...
Worrying about the calories? STOP worrying and indulge first...
Life is meant to be enjoyed... worrying will take away your youth!

Ooh la la!
Now we're ready for the Worldcup! woo-hoo!

Bubbles is loving it!

The choice is mine

A week has passed since I've chosen to venture into a new chapter in my life's journey. Although that new chapter has yet to be revealed and I am taking another short break to rejuvenate my mind & soul before putting on my armor again.

For the past 7 days, I've encountered contradicting emotions...
1. Excited for the change yet afraid of the unknown
2. Relieved yet heavyhearted for leaving
3. More excitement again yet distressed
4. Thrilled for the opportunity yet anxious for the change

Sometimes it's just so difficult to choose.

WHY?

Because you won't know if it's the right choice.

But then again, who knows what is right and wrong? Nothing is certain. In life, we are forced to make decisions everyday. Little, small, big, important, unimportant... all decisions mould us into what we are today. Most of the time, decisions are being influenced by people, circumstances, status, environment...etc.

SO... there will not be WHAT IF in my vocabulary regarding this decision. I have made my choice.




WHY NOT?

Monday, June 7, 2010

1st year of love celebration

5th June 2010
I would say the celebration started even earlier than expected... Bubbles got me a gorgeous pink rose that will never fade away, which is exactly what he wishes for our love to be!
Forever...
However, he hid the pressie in a place where I can see every single day but cannot touch! It was pure torture! Ughh... I was so curious that I could kill a........c-cat! *gulp* Every single day, I walked pass the pressie and have the urge to just grab it and tear it open to reveal the mystery!
Sigh... too bad I was brought up in a family that practices good manners... who would not touch anything that isn't intended to be...
However, I would say... the wait was worth it! I love the pressie and the meaning behind it...
It was certainly a great night!
Celebrating our important day at a famous Japanese Restaurant - Rakuzen.
The food was delicious, the ambiance was great, the company was even better...
Nothing is ever greater than a shared evening with someone that matters!

Although I don't really fancy raw food other than salmon... the dish certainly looks delicious!
The salmon was so fresh and sweet... the rest was pretty good as well, Bubbles love it!
Ooohh... my favourite of all!
Yummy baked Oysters and sushi!
After dinner, we proceed to the place where our love story begins...
How can we end the night without our favourite jazz?
I can still remember the day when Bubbles "accidently" grabbed my hand while I was so mesmerized by the jazz... the feeling of his warmth overwhelmed the entire jazzy atmosphere... it was also the day where he did not let go of my hand...
We celebrated our 1st year of love with style indeed, enjoying another jazzy live performance at Alexis@Ampang with bubbling champagne to seal the deal.
Hmm... the deal?
Our vision for our relationship...
the love story will continue... in style,
with love and with a pinch of excitement every now and then...
*wink*


Thanks for the love & TLC that you have given since the beginning...

Saturday, June 5, 2010

A remarkable year of love

Align Center

Happy 1st Anniversary my darling!


You’ve given me hope, inspiration and love
Because of you I feel alive once more
When heavy storms have come our way
Your love has always made me stay

Each morning I wake and see your face
I know in you, I’ve found my place
Our bond is extraordinary, beautiful, magical, and rare
It’s remarkable how wonderful you make me feel

We belong together, both you and I
That, the world cannot deny
Never in my life will I find another man
Who could ever fulfill me the way you can

The life we’ve shared this past year
Has proved forever it shall persevere
I will love you forever in every way
That I hope, will remain constant until my dying day.



A truly remarkable man, Bubbles... who have touched my life in every way possible. The above poem have not fully reflected what is in my heart for words cannot describe just how incredible our first year journey has been. I am wishing for more anniversaries to be shared and more memories to fill our heart.

Thank you for just being who you are and loving me for who I am.


Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Wisdom from Oogway

It feels so strange, the chapter ends abruptly and yet I have spent so many hours, days and months going through it.

The new chapter that I am going to explore will be even more challenging and I am more concern in adapting to the changed environment. I feared change. I was very afraid of the unknown. I have murdered millions of brain-cells trying to figure out the future. To lessen the feeling of being lost in my vision to the future. In other words, preventing change.

I was watching Kungfu Panda on TV once night and the Master Oogway enlightened me. It's such a joke to admit that it takes a turtle to show me the wisdom in life.



It says "You are too concerned with what was and what will be. There's a saying: Yesterday is History, Tomorrow a Mystery, Today is a Gift. That's why it is called the Present".

All of a sudden, I understand what I need to do. I need to "Believe".
To believe in the flow of life itself, to believe that every event, every decision, every step I make... is meant to be. There will be no right or wrong because the future is a mystery. There are also no accidents in life as every outcome is the reflection of our action. This is the cycle in our life. A cycle that will be filled with joy and satisfaction if we believe in it. Most importantly, believing in ourself. Believing in our decisions and choices, believing in our actions...

Especially when opportunity is now knocking loudly at my door, eager to be welcomed into my life! There's just no time to worry so much about whatever... as I've mentioned before, opportunity just doesn't knock twice!

Sucha a wise turtle! I am now awaiting for another new chapter to unfold and anticipating the challenges & excitement in my newly chosen journey in life... jia you!!


Translation: jia you (mandarin) = gambate (Japanese) = add oil (English)

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Time flies when you're having FUN

Time flies when you're having a good time and that is exactly how I feel right now. Having been here for over a week and I am already loving every single experience... from the people I've met, the yummy local food, the strong wind and cold weather, the fresh air and clean environment, the laid-back life of the locals, the loaded book stores, the delicious ice-creams, the beautiful parks, the lovely flowers and greens, the chubby animals, and the list is never-ending.

I've had so much FUN!

Again... time flies and soon I will be back to reality and that means I have to choose which path to continue my journey. No doubt it's a tough decision however, deep inside my heart, I already have the answer. My challenge is to bring out the courage and bury the ego.

I've still got a few more days here... gonna enjoy every single minute of it!


Sunday, May 16, 2010

Chi-town experience!


Bubbles and myself... our first trip to Chicago.
It has been an amazing experience for both of us!


I love the beautiful flowers, greens and weather.
So refreshing and makes me feel life is so remarkable... Why not be happy all the time?


Every single person is unique. I just want to be myself...


My first experience at 103 stories high up on Willis Tower!
Scary yet I was so proud of myself! Even though I don't dare to look down and had to crawl out because want to take evidence of me being there :P nyek!



But it's definitely worth it! Look at the view... nothing can compare...




It has been an amazing experience in Chicago... Given another chance, I would want to be there a little longer to explore more of the city and culture, the people... the delicious food and incredible shopping places!


More importantly, to be able to share this experience with Bubbles... makes it even more special...

Saturday, May 8, 2010

my pilgrimage to the land far far away

I feel so warm even though the weather is now at about 10*C and I am so awake even though it's five in the morning with the strong wind blowing strongly outside the window.

Can you guess how many hours in total did I traveled from KL to Chicago?

Traveling hours including transit to Singapore and the nap time before boarding to Hong Kong with all the delay and finally landed to Chicago O'hare Airport.


Guys, it adds up to a total of 39 hours.


Thank god I was able to sleep on the flight. Thank god for the sleeping pill. I think I should buy more for the flight home. Haha!


Also thank god for all the helpful airport attendants and the people I met on the flight. The attendants have made my journey a good one and the people I met... they have helped me kill time! Not forgetting, thank god for Paulo Coelho. His books kept me occupied for most of the time.


However, it is all worth it. Being welcomed at the airport by Bubbles and his dozen of gorgeous red roses and embracing me with his hugs and kisses... it was amazing!
Today is my the first morning in Chicago and the weather is very cold indeed. But who cares?! I'm being kept warm by Bubbles...


my first bouquet of sweetness from Bubbles...

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Is May just another month for you?

Aaaahh... the long awaited May is finally here! May is certainly going to be another life changing month for me as I will be traveling to a land far far away for a much needed time for spiritual recuperation.

Being in a world filled with so much animosity, hatred, bitterness, sarcasm, competition, anger, and etc... It is truly exhausting and disturbing to the soul. When we are running in the same circle every single day, the directions will naturally be diverted and passion will diminish and lost in time. A friend told me that the most difficult part of a person's life is finding out their true passion. What is the worst possible scenario than having found out my true passion but allowing them to collect dust while I run around in that circle full of animosity and such?

Anyhow, May will be a good month and it is time to reunite with my love who has been away for almost two months. I can almost feel his arms around me as he hugged and kissed me... The saying "Distance makes the heart grow fonder" has proven its point and my heart is missing that someone so much that it is bursting with eagerness to savor the love again... no more lagging video-cam on Skype, no more waiting by MSN, no more expensive SMS and calls, no more separation, no more lonely Fridays and weekends, no more fake hugs and kisses, no more counting down... the list seems endless!

Let me count down just one last time... and this time it's only TWO days!! tick tock tick tock...


Wait for me... I'll be there in a jiffy!!