Happy Father's Day to Daddy

You didn’t say goodbye,

I never thought you would be leaving

You were gone before I knew it,

I wonder why we didn’t foresee it

I didn’t think I needed you,

I cried a million times

If Love alone could have saved you,

You never would have died

In Life I did not show,

In death my heart suffered
For the love I should have shown,
Came haunting since the day you left

In my heart you hold a place,

That no one could ever fill
You will forever be my angel,
Loving and guiding me still

It broke my heart to lose you,

I now know how much I love you

A part of me went with you,

The day that God took you…..

By Joselyn Lee

This photo shows the last celebration of Father's Day with the heroes in my life. My grandfather and my daddy.

I JUST can’t believe a year ago today was my last Father’s day celebration with my daddy. I didn’t know it that day.

It hurts me that I thought Daddy would always be around to celebrate the day. Now, all the memories come flooding back. If only I had realised it then, maybe I would have cherished him more.

I remember he was looking forward to a family gathering for Father’s Day and asked me to phone my uncle to invite him to join us. I made a huge fuss because I didn’t want to. He wanted to have dinner at his favourite restaurant downtown, but I suggested a restaurant nearby because I didn’t want to drive so far.

I remember I once bought him a cute cartoon tie for the occasion. It was meant to be a joke, but daddy felt sad because he didn’t think I appreciated him. Then last year, I bought him something he told me he wanted, to make up for the tie.

Now, the tie and all the other things I’d bought him are left hanging in his wardrobe. He didn’t take anything with him.

I know my daddy wanted me to pamper him, to love him and care for him. But I did not because I was resentful of the hurt he had caused me when I was young. Although he had apologised and changed for the better, I subconsciously never forgave him.

If only my daddy were here today. I would not buy him anything. I would not take him anywhere. I would just shower him with my love and care. I just want him to know how much I appreciated him and to thank him for being there, all my life.

I hope God will send these thoughts to Daddy and tell him that his little daughter has forgiven him and will forever have him in her heart. For he is truly my No. 1hero. My guardian angel. Now and forever. Happy Father’s Day.

This entry was published in the Sunday Star Newspaper 21st June 2009 in conjunction with Father's Day Celebration.

http://thestar.com.my/lifestyle/story.asp?file=/2009/6/21/lifefocus/4143482&sec=lifefocus